If you asked me a week ago, what I wanted out of life, I would quickly rattle off a list of things that are on my vision board.
For example:
1. I want my podcast to be a major success.
2. I want to have a best seller.
3. I want to own my own home.
4. I want to be in the best shape of my life…etc.
Pretty normal stuff right? Well, my BFF introduced me to a book that I have been listening to recently ( on audible) and it posed the simplest question, that somehow stumped me.
The more I asked myself the question, the more the answer escaped me. I began to wonder if I ever really knew the answer, as I searched within myself over and over again.
I wondered, is this the reason that I feel so damn unhappy, even after I’ve achieve something on my vision board? Maybe not knowing the answer is the reason why I seem to lack focus, self-discipline and why I sometimes feel so lost?
And so, out of frustration, I gave up! I was getting a little pissed off to tell you the truth!
Then one day, just like that, the answer popped into my mind, like bubbles in a glass of champagne rising to the top. Without effort, it came to me. The answer to the question:
Who do I want to be?
I want to be a woman whose inner voice expresses the truth of who I am and who I can be, instead of lies, from that broken part of me.
I want to be a woman who doesn’t look at herself through the lens of some flawed person’s perception or disapproval of me, based on their own insecurity or inability to love me the way I deserved to be loved.
I want to be a woman who treats her body, heart, soul and spirit like a queen, instead of being last on the list of mine or someone else’s priorities.
I want to be a woman whose fears no longer control her and whose courage leads the way.
I want to be a woman who looks in the mirror and loves what she sees, instead of the trauma and pain of her past.
I want to be a woman whose generational curses fall off like open shackles around her ankles, so she can step into her greatness!
I want to be the woman I was meant to be, long before the abuse, the heartache and mistakes that tried so damn hard, to break me!
Last but not least, I want to be the type of woman who inspires other women just like me. Those who have been through so much and still deserve to be happy.
Whew! I’ve got some work to do! Stay tuned!
Until next time,
Love, Drea!
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