I have spent the last few months, rummaging through the forest of my mind, looking for answers. Answers from my past and how it has continued to spill over and contaminate my present day and possibly my future. And although I have made some important connections and gained insight about patterns in my life, like the way I deal with relationships and how I handle stress; I still can’t help but feel stuck. It’s as if I am being held captive by something, like a chain that only permits me to walk about and maybe run.
The only thing is, deep down inside, I know I was meant to fly. Not only fly, but soar! I know that I have a bigger purpose and I believe it is to help others. Perhaps women and children who are struggling by a troubled past. Those who are hindered from becoming the versions of themselves that they are truly meant to be. Before the trauma, before the pain or perhaps in spite of it all. I believe this to be true, but sometimes the task seems so great. Not only that, but how can I achieve this task, if something is still holding me back? How can I teach what I have yet to master?
I reflect on the times in my life when I made it through experiences that definitely would have broken others. During those times, I can honestly say that it was not my own strength that carried me through. It was during those times that I leaned on God for strength, wisdom, understanding, restraint, guidance and most of all love. That is what got me through those times. That is what gave me the courage to keep moving forward. That is what broke the chains that were holding me.
Fast forward and I realize now that I have allowed myself to be distracted by many things like daily routines, work, the news etc. They have distracted me from being fully connected to the source of power that once liberated, strengthened, and provided me with peace. Now it makes sense that I have been spinning my wheels, but covered no ground. And I understand why my path is unclear and my cup empty.
Well, I know now what I must do. It is time to reconnect with God. However this time, I have to remain connected, even when things are going well. I believe that I will give birth to the purpose inside me, touching lives of others. Yes, I do believe that, but one things for sure, not without God’s help.
Until next time,
Drea
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