A month ago, I went to the doctor for a visit to address some issues I was having with my back. The nurse taking my vitals, was pretty friendly and we laughed as I joked about stepping on the scale to check my weight. As we settled down and talked about my back issues, she glanced over and looked at the hand bag I was carrying.
She asked: What in the world are you carrying in that bag? It’s way too heavy! You have got to lighten the load! I was slightly embarrassed, so I grabbed my bag and admitted that I carry a lot of items around, “just in case”. She then said to me: “All of that extra weight in your bag is causing you unnecessary pain. Time to let some of it go! I nodded in agreement.
When I left the medical appointment, I couldn’t help but think about her question. I started to reflect on my life and wondered: What unnecessary things am I still carrying around, that I should have let go of a long time ago?
If we pay attention, we will see that the people closest to us are like mirrors reflecting back at us. As I took a closer look at my close relationships, I realized that I am still carrying around things within me, that I need to let go of. Unfortunately, these things are impacting my relationships.
I realized that I still carrying around unresolved traumas and my inner-she-hulk who protected and helped me cope long ago. And while my inner-hulk / protector, served her purpose back then, she is no longer needed. Especially when it comes to my loved ones.
So, I see I still have more unpacking to do. I’ve got to lighten the load. I know that it may hurt having to face all of which I am still carrying, but I know I will feel much better once I am finally able to move forward without all of that weight, weighing me down. Even better, will be the improvements in my relationships! Wish me luck!
Until next time!
Love,
Drea.
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